The Scar of Richness: Part 1

Written by: Mina Obradovic

It is true!

So many times I have heard people and Masters, including Mohanji, saying that if one falls in frequency by talking bad about somebody, especially Masters, it will take them so many lifetimes to again come to the stage of being in the presence of Masters (like we are in Mohanji’s presence now).

It is said that the journey from total blindness to a point of even knowing about a Master takes numerous lifetimes, let alone being in his physical presence. As a normal human being, with a prejudiced mind, I could not understand this truth until I experienced the scars of it on my own skin. Today, because of this scar, I can call myself RICH, because this scar reminds me of the gratitude I must have towards God for holding my hand even when I chose to fall and for helping me climb the stairs of fire to reach Mohanji in this life, after great struggle in the past. RICH is whatever holds the key of gratitude towards the Almighty, because without Himself nothing would have had any meaning, just like my life before meeting Mohanji didn’t have. This scar also reminds me of the power every word we utter has and it taught me to think carefully before speaking. This SCAR is RICHNESS, and in order to avoid suffering on your spiritual path, please learn from my mistakes and let your reminder be my scar, and not your own.

After one of the major tests of my life (given by the negative side) which happened recently (I will not go into details now – maybe in another blog), I had to literally take several days to mentally recover and be able to see light again. During those couple of days I was continuously in an anxious and partially depressive state. Luckily, I received help from a doctor and a few other friends who took extra care of me during my recovery, as I was unable to do so on my own.

The negative beings, apart from whispering lies in my ears that the people who were actually helping me get through my condition are in fact evil and they want nothing but to use me and hurt me, they were also trying hard to separate me from my own self and everything good that I can think and do for myself and society, with the aim of finally detaching me from the white path and its Masters.

Although many realizations arose within me throughout this experience, today I will emphasize only one, in my opinion the most important one – the TRUTH behind the wise words “Speaking bad about a Master, criticizing, abusing and blaming Him will make you take thousands of lifetimes to even know about Him, let alone be close to one such. It will push you that many lifetimes backwards and seeing light will only rest in your dreams until you achieve that eligibility again. The path towards that eligibility may not be easy – you may have to walk on fire and thorns, spill blood and sweat, suffer and die many times, but once you achieve it, it will feel like it is nothing. It will feel very easily achievable and losing it will feel like drinking a cup of coffee.”

Sitting on my bed 3 days after one of the major tests of my life that I previously mentioned, I was spontaneously pushed into a trance state where I saw one of my past lives from thousands of years ago.

I was a young boy, rapidly and effortlessly progressing in my spiritual journey. I saw myself sitting in a lotus posture in front of a very old person (I assumed and felt that he was my guru from that time).

I merged with the young boy’s consciousness and could clearly hear his thoughts, “I didn’t have to work too much to achieve all this spiritual wealth that I have now. It is not true that it is hard to achieve all this! See how I achieved everything and I am still so young. Imagine how much I will achieve later!” I could hear his silent thought of wondering how it is all true. The old person who was sitting in front of him (me), my Guruji, replied to my thoughts out loud in a language that I could not understand. Being aware of a trance state and that I am still sitting on my bed of my current life, I could feel vibrations of Guruji’s words travelling through my mind and spontaneously being translated into English. He said, “What you have now is what you and your ancestors have earned in the past. Only because you easily have it today it doesn’t mean that it is easily achievable. Let no ego enter your system. Always remember the blood and sweat spilled for the spiritual awareness that you possess today. Beware.”
I said, “Oh, Guruji! You are so powerful, you could hear my thoughts! Sorry, Guruji, for thinking this way, I didn’t know. Please take my ego away. But Guruji, remembering blood and sweat, isn’t that negative?”
Guruji replied, “If spilled for God’s grace, glory and His children, remembering blood and sweat is greater than the greatest sadhana. It awakens all the core principles of our Tradition, all at once – gratitude, humility and inspiration to do more for God and all His numerous children.”

I felt so nice sitting in Guruji’s presence. His words seemed real, but I didn’t understand His point and that is being aware that all what is flourishing today has a root of great effort in the past. If today we are smelling a flower, it means that yesterday we worked hard in the fields and waited patiently to bring that flower to life.

Guruji was very silent and very thin. He was looking peaceful. I saw many Saints and Masters protecting me and supporting me from different dimensions of the whole Universe, only because I am with Guruji. All Saints, Masters, Siddhas, Avadhootas and Gods were protecting me, EQUALLY as They were protecting my Guruji, despite of the fact that I cannot even be compared to Him, considering His spiritual stature. He was an Avadhoota, God and a Master of all Masters that I could not understand at that time. Still, I was given the equal power and protection by the graceful hands of Guru Mandala.

Frozen in this trance state, not being able to move, act or say anything, I was still sitting in the same position on the bed. Only my silent breath was audible. The vision of me and Guruji along with all celestial beings around us suddenly vanished, and I could feel Mohanji’s hand on my forehead, expanding my third eye more.

I felt He is helping me to see and experience more from that life. I wondered which role that life plays in my current one. There must be a reason for Mohanji showing it to me. Thousands of years must have passed, why is it important to remember it now? I received no answer. Only silence and blank mind were predominant for a few seconds.

Suddenly I was pushed a couple of years ahead in that life. Now, I was completely alone. No Guruji, no celestial beings around me, no protection and no grace that I was previously able to see in a form of white light. All I could see is dark, dark and dark, in many forms and shapes, as numerous low-frequent beings who were happily sucking whatever energy I had left within me. I wondered, “Where did all that brightness disappear?” I was looking drained and my skin was dry. I looked weaker than before. My eyes were half-shut as I was sitting in a lotus position, trying to enter one of the states of samadhi that I used to enter so easily before, when Guruji was there to hold my hand. I was struggling, but nothing was happening. I realized that I no longer possess all the spiritual wealth that I thought I will never lose. What happened in between? What did I do? This vision vanished as well. I was pushed again years and years ahead of that life, to the moment where I left my body.

My following lifetimes were flashing before my eyes – hard struggle from body to body, birth – struggle – suffering – death, repeating cycles, ups and downs, with one constant desire and craving – to see and feel light again, at least for one single second. Flashes stopped and I saw myself as a young lady in Japan, again sitting and meditating in a lotus posture. I was covered in dark violet cloth and was wearing orange pants. Barefoot, my feet were facing the sky. I felt myself focusing on my inner space, again with the same desire and craving, and suddenly I could feel a glimpse of bliss that sparkled within! This inner glow expanded my heart and I could suddenly feel so much love and peace lighting from the inside!

My guruji from the life when I was a young boy appeared in front of me in white light.

He lovingly said, “My child, I told you many times, if you do certain things, you will take numerous lifetimes to experience only a glimpse of me again. Now do you feel it? Do not repeat the same mistake again. Remember the struggle this has taken. Love all. Never judge, never criticize.”
Suddenly a huge realization arose within this devoted young lady, another seeker of truth – “This small glimpse of light that I BARELY experienced now is the light that I used to feel CONTINUOUSLY in that life when Guruji was with me!

I am filled with gratitude to God for giving me this much, only a glimpse of bliss, but where was my gratitude when I had it all? I was one step away from the highest. Only because of inability to see the effort done in the past, I have easily fallen into the hands of the negative!”

Still sitting on the bed of my room, suddenly I was filled with fear of losing the proximity to Mohanji’s grace in this life. “How was I given this much? Now it feels so easy to lose it all.” The trance state started dissolving, and I could still feel myself trembling of that thought. Separation from the white – is it really something that occurs somewhere far away from me, or is it something I should pay more attention to? In a search of an answer, my experience led me to the second one. After a few moments, the fear dissolved as well, and all that remained was the humble gratitude.

The main moment from today was that of those numerous lives flashing before my eyes, because, I could not only see, but I could literally FEEL the pain, suffering and the struggle that I had to go through to earn what I have today. “Nothing falls from the sky, especially not the spiritual wealth.” is the lesson of my day today, as well as one of my whole life.

I will write a separate blog on what happened to myself as a young boy who fell down to level zero of his spiritual path.

TO BE CONTINUED…

May we always be blessed with gratitude!

||JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI||

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