by Marija Radeska, Macedonia
My Journey with Mohanji – A Transformational Experience in India
Through this blog, I want to share my personal experience with Mohanji in India—a journey that deeply transformed me from within.
In October 2024, Mohanji held a retreat in Macedonia. It was unforgettable. I went through some powerful inner changes, and my connection with him became stronger than ever. The energy I experienced during those days was magical. I felt alive, joyful—grateful for everything.
But a few months later, things started to fall apart. January came, and with it, a heavy wave of exhaustion. I felt drained—physically and emotionally. My body was constantly tired, my head felt heavy, and I struggled to find joy in the things that once uplifted me. Headaches became a regular part of my days, sleep felt out of reach, and I didn’t feel like myself. I didn’t know exactly what was going on, but I knew something wasn’t right—and I had no clear solution.
At that moment, the name of a Mai-Tri practitioner kept coming to mind. I had never worked with her before, but the pull was strong and persistent. I decided to trust that inner voice and reached out to her. After our session, something shifted. The insights she gave me clearly reflected the inner struggle I was facing—it was like looking into a mirror. It turned out to be energetic attacks and entities. Attacks that weren’t random—they were intentional. And while I felt better one day, the next would be worse.
The attacks got stronger. There were days when I was completely overwhelmed by despair and helplessness. I would lie in bed for hours, crying, not knowing why I was crying. I was simply seeking help.
I was doing many spiritual practices—2 to 3 hours a day—different techniques, including Mai-Tri sessions. Eventually, I realized that the situation was far from simple and that I needed to go to India.
Within two weeks, I had made all the arrangements and left on my own. I had never travelled alone outside of my country, let alone somewhere as far as India. But I knew Mohanji was with me. Most importantly—I went with no expectations.
The journey was long. I arrived in Bengaluru around 4 a.m., where a kind girl was waiting for me. She took me to Mohanji’s house. The moment I entered, I felt a surge of energy move through my body. It’s not just a house—it’s a temple. Even though I had been travelling for 24 hours, I didn’t feel tired or sleepy at all. I attended my first Aarti at 6 a.m. and enjoyed every second of it—just as I did with every Aarti afterwards. I didn’t sleep that day, caught between the powerful energy of the house and the pure joy of simply being there.
The next day, Mohanji arrived. We had a short meeting, and I couldn’t even explain what I had been going through. Those attacks now felt like a distant memory—as if they had happened years ago, not just days earlier.
We agreed that I would meet him in Mumbai a few days later and that I would travel with him for the next two weeks, wherever he went. I remember him saying: “Maria, this journey with me will be a real challenge for you, but I strongly believe you’ll handle it well.”
I was so excited to visit Mumbai. I had heard it was a beautiful city. But when I arrived, I experienced complete culture shock. Textbook symptoms: loss of appetite, insomnia, disorientation, anxiety, fatigue. I felt like I couldn’t breathe. Everything was unfamiliar—the surroundings, the people, everything. I had to constantly adapt on every level.
The next day, Mohanji arrived. And from that moment—everything changed. His energy was so intense that it instantly dissolved all the confusion and anxiety I had. Shortly after, we travelled to Ganeshpuri, a town about two hours from Mumbai, where Mohanji plans to move. There, I witnessed rituals and traditions I had never experienced before. It was extraordinary.
After that, we returned to Mumbai for a few more days, and then we flew to Kochi. From that moment on, I became his assistant.
I understood what a blessing this was. I was one of the chosen few with a lifetime opportunity to serve him. Mohanji had given me this chance despite his discomfort and inconvenience and went out of his way to help me with my karmic issues. By keeping me close to his physical proximity, he ensured that I was protected and cleared lifetimes of issues, fast-forwarding my journey and providing me with all that was required at this moment.
Mohanji had been invited to a birthday celebration by longtime friends. While we were there, we visited two temples. Visiting temples and sacred places was actually my only wish when I decided to go to India—so this felt especially significant.
We stayed in Kochi only for two days before heading to Mandalam, in the Kurnool district, for Ugadi Shiva Yatra Seva—a sacred gathering led by Avadhoota Nadananda. Along with his team of doctors and followers, he organized a healing program where they massaged the feet of hundreds of tired pilgrims, offering food and water and providing selfless service – day and night.
It was a huge blessing to attend this Seva with Mohanji. Even though the conditions were far from what I was used to—we slept on thin yoga-mat-style mattresses on the floor, five of us in one room, along with a few Indian women we had never met. The heat was intense, and we only had a fan. Worst of all for me—there were insects, and I have a full-blown phobia. The idea of staying five nights felt impossible.
The first night, we arrived late, and I fell asleep immediately from exhaustion. But nights there are nothing like what I’m used to. Drums and music played at 2 a.m., 3 a.m., 4 a.m.—sometimes every 30 minutes. So, no sleep. After two nights, we moved to sleep outside on the terrace—and that actually turned out to be a great decision.
Despite all of this—despite the discomfort, the unfamiliarity, the heat, the noise—none of it could compare to the greatness of Mohanji. His presence, his love, his energy—they were so vast and powerful that everything else felt like mere drops in the ocean. Every day, he invited us to eat with him in his room. I felt deeply blessed—and honestly, privileged—just to be near him. And to eat meals with him every day? That’s another level of grace.
I didn’t feel tired. I didn’t feel sleepy. I didn’t feel uncomfortable. That’s only possible in his presence. And when I remembered the state I was in before I came to India, it felt like a whole lifetime had passed, as if years had gone by—not just two or three weeks.
In the end, we returned to Bengaluru. I had three more days before flying back to Macedonia. Part of me missed home, my life—but another part of me never wanted to leave India. I never wanted to say goodbye to Mohanji. Only someone who has lived through this can truly understand—this isn’t something that can be fully expressed in words.
I’m writing this blog about a week after my journey to India. I’m still the same person—but at the same time, profoundly different. A new level of life energy flows through me, vibrant and alive. I feel an inner peace that embraces everything, and my heart is overflowing with true, unconditional love. My perception has completely shifted—not only about Mohanji but about the people around me, life itself, and most importantly, about myself. Through this journey, I came to know Mohanji on a much deeper, more intimate level. I saw the immense significance of his presence in this world. He has time, love, understanding, and guidance for everyone—offered unconditionally, without distinction or judgment.
Everything around me is the same, yet everything feels different. The people in my life are the same, but the way I experience them has transformed. Situations that once touched me deeply or caused pain no longer affect me in the same way. I don’t take anything personally anymore. My reactions have changed, as if I’m seeing the world through a new lens, one filled with clarity and compassion.
Most importantly, I returned completely cleansed from the energetic attacks that once overwhelmed me. Mohanji didn’t do anything visible, yet he accomplished so much. I came back stable, pure, free from fear, and with a deep, unshakable connection to him.
Let me end with the words my heart keeps repeating:
The greatness and love of Mohanji are beyond measure.
|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI ||
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 22nd June 2025
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