By Alua Kinzhebayeva, UK
Om Namah Shivaya, Shivaya Namah Om.
Before I met Mohanji in 2024, I dreamt of meeting Prema Sai Baba, the 3rd avatar of Sai Baba, to ask him to pull a plug on me. Then many times I wanted to ask Mohanji to help my soul to leave the body after a live satsang, but never did – thoughts of death disappear when you are in the presence of the divine, so I would just hand him over items to bless, quickly shoot a glance at his pure, still face, and royal elegance and leave.
He has given me Kriya, Shaktipats, Abhishekam at Maha Kumbh 2025, Satsangs, Empowered “Making Masters” series, and I am sure much more than I am aware of. This is plenty to have a great life, to evolve, and to finally leave, hopefully once and for all. He has purified and aligned me to the extent that I feel better immediately once I start chanting a mantra. Just thinking of my upcoming trip to MCB to see Sai Baba and Datta instantly dissolves caffeine-induced anxiety. Morning Kriya dissolves heaviness and fatigue acquired over lifetimes. Looking at Mohanji’s Moksha-inducing photos and videos with love and adoration elevates me into a state of love.
Every Sunday, Mohanji would elevate my state by simply greeting everyone and waving goodbye, and then from Tuesday, it would go downhill. In that state, I had a sense of what could help me, including simply calling Mohanji by name. However, I thought, what is the point of asking Mohanji and Sai Baba for help if they are keeping me alive in this world with their presence, to perform a role and meet people’s expectations, so I could eat to sustain the cycle of life! Life without joy and love is no life.
This was until Mohanji landed in London. While waiting, then following him around to live-stream on Facebook and watching him hug people, I thought the presence or absence of people around him didn’t diminish his light. There was Alua, who had drained herself of energy on purpose. Alua has a choice to stay depressed and disconnected or focus on Mohanji. I made my choice. I felt present and not scattered just by focusing on Mohanji. I didn’t need to perform for him or for him to perform for me. This is when I applied the same logic to people who don’t connect to the light and joy in me, or to my tired face. It is not on me; it is their choice, and their presence, absence, and the way they perceive and interact with me doesn’t define me.
I have been disconnected from myself for so long, lifetimes, that I looked for myself outside – clueless, wasted energy trying to understand and connect to living patterns instead of connecting to myself, the one who has always been by my side, a compassionate, loving, silent presence.
I have let go of the weight which is not mine. All thanks to Mohanji’s presence in my life.
Joyous and empty, I am that which is not.
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Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 18th December 2025
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