A Path of Inner Freedom through Awareness and Forgiveness
Every human being carries impressions. These impressions are formed through experiences, emotions, reactions, and the environments we have been part of. They begin forming even before we are consciously aware of them and continue to accumulate throughout life. Over time, they shape how we perceive the world, how we respond to situations, and how we relate to others. Many of the patterns we experience in life are not random—they are expressions of what we have stored within. The Conscious Cleansing Process is a way of becoming aware of these patterns and consciously releasing their hold.
By Martin, Macedonia
I joined the first session ten minutes early, but didn’t notice any change in the energy. During the introduction, the vibe stayed the same while Subhasree explained what the session would cover. After her explanation, she began, and the energy shifted drastically the moment she started. My body temperature began to fluctuate wildly: cold for a few minutes, then warm for a few minutes. I put on a jacket, but that wasn’t enough, so I covered myself with a blanket.
She guided us through stages—from the womb through childhood into old age—asking us to release memories and impressions. I don’t remember what happened after that. I don’t know whether I was in a deep sleep or had entered some other state. When she reached the period around twenty years old, I began perceiving her voice for the first time. As she moved through the later stages, I listened to what she said while remaining in such deep meditation that only a few thoughts crossed my mind until the session ended. Mohanji’s divine grace has no limits.
As Subhasree was finishing, I felt mild pains around my arms and heart center that lasted only a few seconds. Out of nowhere, I felt a sharp pain in my throat. I took a pain reliever, but the pain did not go away. After the session ended, participants shared their experiences. I told Subhasree about the strong pain in my throat; she said it was related to the truth and advised me to observe how it behaved over the next few days. While I was sharing in front of the others, I noticed difficulty speaking—expressing myself was hard, and my thoughts and words couldn’t synchronize.
Detachment and healing
The session was over. I felt very strange and needed time to digest the experience. The pain in my throat was still strong. My eyes were burning, my ears were buzzing and hurting, and my nose was running nonstop. It was exhausting. During a twelve-hour sleep, I dreamed about my home and surroundings: my entire home, except for my room, was filled with all sorts of objects, so there was no room to walk. It was very dark and windowless—more like a basement than a home. I dreamed of my environment traumatizing me by imposing things on me against my will—invalidating my perception, gaslighting me, torturing me, and so on and so forth. This may be the part I don’t remember from the session.
Almost twenty-four hours after the session ended, a deep peace settled over me. I read this experience without emotion, and the pain in my throat had almost gone. I performed aarati four times in a row, and while performing the ritual, the pain in my throat disappeared completely. Mohanji’s divine grace has no limits. Forty‑eight hours after the session ended, I fell asleep remembering only that I had dreamed so many things I could not recall. The pain in my throat had gone completely, but my nose was still running, and I felt very low pressure in my ears.
The weather was unusually warm for winter, so I decided to ride my bike. I visited the neighbourhood where I grew up—the house where I was born and the home where I spent my childhood. I felt completely detached from it all. I saw only objects and no memories attached to them: nothing. Zero. Later, I met some childhood friends, and they felt like complete strangers; I could remember only their names, as if my whole childhood had never existed. This may also be the part I don’t remember from the session.
All I remember during the second session is having no thoughts for over an hour — I don’t know exactly how long.
In the third session, I remember being in a deep meditative state — I don’t know how long it lasted. My body temperature felt unusually cold. This has happened in every session I’ve attended so far. It also occurs in all Weekly Talks, not only in Conscious Cleansing sessions. In some sessions, my body temperature fluctuates wildly: cold for a few minutes, then warm for a few minutes; in most sessions, it remains cold. Before the session, I wrote a message to my Guruji, Mohanji, about this body-temperature experience, and during the session, he replied, “Time will tell the effects. Give it some time. Let the effects talk.” True king — I don’t know what else to say.
During the fourth and most recent session, I experienced the same cold sensation throughout. I followed Subhasree’s voice until she began the guidance from the womb state. I cannot recall what happened afterwards; I do not know whether I fell into a deep sleep or entered another state. When she reached the section about being around thirty years old, I began to perceive her voice again afterwards.
The only question on my mind right now is: when is the next session!?
By Cathy Johnston, UK
The results from the first CCP conducted online with Subhasree were astonishing for me. Aside from childbirth, I have never witnessed the sheer depth and volume of those noises emanating from my being. The session naturally revealed Mohanji’s mind-splitting technique, requiring no real effort on my part. It felt sensible and practical to observe myself following the simple, guided steps throughout the ages of my existence.
It was incredible to quietly observe myself with curiosity – like a film director -while simultaneously writhing on the floor, howling like a bear in a trap, and taking mental notes for later. You marvel at the elements at play as inner trauma erupts from your soul. I was the actor, director, producer, and prompter when I got stuck and needed a word to express more. Who knew that we could be all these things for ourselves?
It also struck me that I could heal myself. In those deeply cleansing moments, I knew where this tsunami was coming from and that it was a huge, significant part of the healing process. Five years of pushing grief and guilt away. Five years of disbelief as we watched mum’s sparkling lights dim as she slipped further and further into the clutches of dementia.
No matter how often we tried to convince ourselves we were ‘doing the best for Mum,’ feelings of betrayal and abandonment ran too deep as life dragged on. I was her Judas. I prayed every day for God to take her – I wished my own mother dead for five whole years.
The golden key
That first session showed me the enormity of my burden, and I vowed to attend more. Fast forward to my recent trip to London, where Subhasree asked me to share a testimonial interview. I was reluctant, knowing I didn’t look my best – I was tired and still a bit low – so I asked her, off camera, what questions she planned to ask. My chin wobbled as I recounted that traumatic time, but I held it together until the end. Then she asked if we could video the whole thing again.
Mohanji’s presence was tangible during filming as I tried not to be self-conscious. In essence, I relived the whole scenario twice. I left for the long drive home, arrived late, had a snack and went to bed. The next morning, I was chopping vegetables, listening to the Gayatri mantra sung by Subhasree. Entranced, I began to feel heavy and sad. My husband, Jan, entered the kitchen and asked why I looked so sad. I told him I wasn’t sure and went to have a soak in the bath.
I set my intention to explore this sadness, unsure how to start. I wondered if it was about Mum – we’d had our first Mother’s Day without her, and the anniversary of her passing was only a month away. Moments later, I began to sob deeply. Again, I was incredulous, witnessing the scene as my sobbing grew into a howl. In the end, I cried out the word ‘pain,’ realising my heart had been shut tight for years. I knew Mohanji was taking care of me and had worked through Subhasree to bring my ordeal to light.
Conscious Cleansing is the golden key to the fortified box of trauma we closely guard for the fear of losing control. Words feel too trite to express the profound appreciation for Mohanji’s unconditional love. How lucky we are to have him hold our hands.
|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI ||
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 2nd April 2026
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