By Natalija Mejandjieva, Macedonia
Mohanji fulfilled my wish to feel at home, no matter where I am.
Many times before, I thought about traveling and being able to see many places and countries, but there was always some fear of being far from home. I remember one time around 10 years ago when I was a student, I was walking in the city square in Skopje, Macedonia, and I thought to myself, how much I want to have the feeling of being home, no matter where I am. My body is my home. This was the initial thought. At that time, I was having anxiety and panic attacks intensively.
A few months ago, we had a WCA meeting, and I was invited to participate in the Festival of Consciousness, happening in Scotland, as a part of Hearts Liberated and WCA. It is not easy for a citizen from the Balkans to get a visa to the UK. To explain my decision, I would go back to earlier this year. In May 2024, there was a one-day program with Mohanji in Obrenovac, Serbia. There were a few processes that were very strong and intense, and people led them in such a professional way. We danced a lot, and then the satsang happened, and Mohanji came. After the satsang, I went to get my necklace blessed and told him about coming to Scotland. He said that it is not easy to get a visa.
I stayed with question marks inside my head – should I apply at all? I decided to go further and apply. I had different opinions from people. Most of them said that it is not easy at all, that the UK government is very strict, and that I will even pay and not get the money back. Still, I had a few people from my surroundings who were willing to help me collect everything and make it in the right way.
One day, I went to work and told my CEO that I wanted to go to Scotland, but it was very hard for a Macedonian to get a visa. He wanted to help me, so he offered to write a letter, which was a guarantee that his employee would come back to the company. This would be my ticket, I was sure. The day when I submitted the application, I got some kind of message from Mohanji. It was not written, but I could feel his presence there. It was very clear that he sent me a confirmation about getting the visa. Very soon after that, I got an answer that my visa was approved. This was Mohanji’s doing through different people.
The packing was done, and I took everything that I could so that I could prepare for the cold weather in Scotland, compared to Macedonia, which was 20 degrees different. I first traveled to Tirana by bus and stayed there one night at Jadranka, from Mohanji Family. I had half a day to walk around and see Tirana and had an amazing time. There, I already felt good, comfortable, pleasant, and peaceful, even though I was alone in a foreign country.
The next day, I flew to Edinburgh. For the past couple of years, since I connected to Mohanji, I have always seen him as the pilot, and this makes me feel much calmer and relaxed. Then I am sure I will reach my destination. The flight was 3 hours, the longest flight I have taken. I met a Scottish man who was a football lover and had traveled the world to watch football. Since the plane started late, I asked him about my next destination and how to reach the tram station quickly. He was very focused on helping me and made it easy for me to feel secure and peaceful.
All the time, there was some help coming my way. I was not even asking, but people were there to show me where to go next so that I could reach somewhere. I met with a person on the train, and he said a few times that he was amazed at how I traveled alone so far. This is not so often spoken since the world is traveling to much further distances, but I guess what I needed to hear came to me. For the first time, the thought went through my head: I feel at home.
After 4 hours of travel by train, I finally arrived in Huntly, a small town near the MCB. Chris picked me up from the train station and took me for a short sightseeing trip to see and feel the Scottish countryside. The buildings were all the same color, grey, but they looked like they were from a fairy tale, movies, or books. A place filled with green spaces and so many beautiful green fields. What was very strange was that everything was flat. I couldn’t see any mountains around. I was always looking to find something higher, but that was it.
When we got to the MCB, I met Baba first. I was half sleepy, half awake, and mostly happy and grateful. The temple was beautiful; everything was bright and peaceful. The time was very short because I was accommodated in a place called “The White House,” so the ladies who were accommodated there picked me up and took me there. Amazing ladies who stayed close to my heart. The next day, I met with Jelena, my partner from Hearts Liberated, who was shining. I had a feeling this place had something to do with it.
Regular aaratis were being done. This is not something natural for where I come from; it is not in our tradition or religion. I was even thinking if I should go and be a part of it, but I decided to try. People were singing and dancing. First, I observed what they were doing. I didn’t feel I needed to go in and join. After the 2nd or 3rd time, I felt like crying. My mind stopped analyzing how the marble edges of Baba’s eyes were carved in a way that a feeling was shown so clearly because it was Baba himself, not the artist. Baba’s eyes were radiant with compassion and love, which brought tears to my eyes.
From that moment, I sang and danced, totally connecting to the whole energy and being a part of the group that was dancing the most. Every day, I communicated, hugged people, joined them, spoke to them, met them, laughed, and did everything. So many amazing people. I felt even closer to myself and even closer to the Mohanji family. This was completely new to me. I was enjoying every part of it, being grateful for what I was experiencing. All day, I was thanking Mohanji for bringing me there. This was where I was supposed to be at that time. There was a reason for it.
On the first day, we went to Aberdeen and shared flyers for the upcoming Festival of Consciousness. Cathy organized everything so well, and we had a nice time being promoters. I always had the feeling that people were very nice and warm, even though the weather was very cold. The next day was the day I first saw Mohanji there. He was always wearing clothes that were the same color as Baba’s clothes. This was really satisfying to see – similar colors, high frequencies, and unity before our eyes.
One of the people in the audience welcomed Mohanji and thanked him for being there with all of us after having a cold for 3 days and not leaving the room. What Mohanji answered was: “It is your Grace”. This struck me. All of us had the opportunity to sit with him. Listen and observe everything he says and does. Why is that? Because it is our grace, our eligibility. We deserve it, and we need to be thankful for it. I couldn’t believe how lucky I was to be amongst those people, which was also amazing. All in all, I knew a few of the guests, but I got to know 20 more, and I felt many of them close to my heart. This was the second time I had the feeling – I felt at home.
I always have problems with my stomach when I travel. This was the case again. Of course, Mohanji knows everything. He poked me in the stomach a few times when passing by. On the 4th or 5th day, I was feeling emotional. Heaviness came, and I didn’t know how to deal with it. That was the first time I saw Lord Dattatreya in the middle of a garden with flowers, in a glass cabin with white frames. It was beautiful. I sat there and shared that I had come here; it was far from home. It was far from everything. It was my opportunity to release and work on myself in the presence of Mohanji and Masters, and I was now feeling emotional. The strong pattern started working.
So I left everything at Lord Dattatreya’s feet. Not even ten seconds passed, I looked over my right shoulder and saw Mohanji getting out of the house with members of the UK team. I was repeatedly asking myself, what just happened? We were only seeing Mohanji during satsangs, and now, is it my grace to see him one more time today?
He spoke my name, so I went there. I went for a hug and felt so much love. There was not anything less or more. He listened to everything I thought, he understood everything I felt, and at that moment, he showed me that this was all true and that he was always there for me. That was the day when Mohanji recorded Guru Poornima’s message. After the short walk, I got back and couldn’t feel anything at all. Not one emotion was there. He cleansed whatever was blocking me.
On the last day, I saw Mohanji for a short period of time. I shared with him how I was feeling like I was home and feeling so much love, acceptance, beautiful energy, and kindness. He said that it is the most important for the Mohanji Family. People need to give support, kindness, and compassion. He told me that no one should feel abandoned; this should never happen. And what he said is that we need to be there for each other, be there for people, be there and help each other. Like family. If something is happening to someone, then all should be with that person.
He spoke to me about this, and it resonated so much with my feelings. Sharing the values of love, compassion, kindness, and respect amongst people. Everyone wants to be a part of that environment. This is what he spoke about. It made me realize I failed so many times, but now, for sure, he is telling me this with a reason. For the first time, I didn’t have the urge to cry when I was saying goodbye to Mohanji. This was amazing.
I traveled by car to London and slept in one of the Mohanji Family members’ houses, where I was treated with so much respect and was fed Indian food, which I liked a lot. People were so kind and so warm. I had the opportunity to see a few parts of London and had a really nice time. I felt that everything was packed in a way that it seemed like it was a year’s worth of experiences and feelings, but it all happened in 2 weeks. In the end, I couldn’t help noticing that the feeling of being home was the most dominant one. Everywhere I went, something amazing happened. I felt deeply satisfied and happy. Filled with love and gratitude.
So, finally, I would say that I was swimming in the ocean of gratitude from day one, and this made me aware of how high-vibration gratitude is. I felt the humility that came with gratitude and the acceptance that is given as a bonus. I think this is why I felt the feeling of home. 10 years ago, I said those exact words. No matter where I am, I should feel at home. This was my wish, and Mohanji fulfilled it.
What amazing energy in the temples, showers of love and grace every day. Repeatedly, I felt in my heart how much I wanted to feel this energy every day. Initially, when I was sitting in front of Baba, Lord Ganesha, and Lord Dattatreya, I had 100 assumptions about how they were idols, but after sitting for some time in their presence, I just felt calm and always wanted to smile. A few times, I felt my mother was there with me, and I remembered her wish, which was that she had always wanted to go to Scotland. Then, I felt that she was experiencing Scotland through me. As she was proofreading this text, she shared that she feels like she has been to Scotland, which confirmed what I felt.
Thank you for reading, and thank you, Mohanji, for always being there for me.
|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI ||
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 12th January 2025
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