by Sadaf Jafari, Canada
A Question for Ehsan, Received in Silence
After Devi Ji visited Canada, Gauri contacted me. During our talk, she paused and said very softly, “Mohanji wants to speak to you directly.”
It wasn’t something planned. It just came to Gauri’s heart in that moment — clear and strong. She asked me: “Is it easier for Ehsan (my husband) to meet Mohanji in India or Dubai?”
At first, my mind quickly answered: “Canada—so we both can meet him.” It came from a wish inside. But Gauri gently repeated the question, and this time, everything became silent. From that silence, a different answer came: “Maybe Dubai… it’s closer to Iran.” There was no thinking. Only a soft knowing flowed through.
After that, something opened in me. Mohanji’s stillness filled my whole being, and Devi Ji’s love embraced my heart. It was the first time I felt both Shiva and Shakti complete within me. I had lost my own mother years ago, but at that moment, I felt whole again.
Months passed. I didn’t think about it much. Then came the announcement: Mohanji would be in Dubai. And I understood. The question had already been asked. The answer had already been given. There was no hesitation. Ehsan (my husband) simply knew. His soul had already heard the call.
This is not my story. It is a story of grace. I was just the space. And everything — every whisper, every knowing — is placed with love at Mohanji’s Lotus Feet. Only grace remains.
While sharing this with a dear friend, another sacred memory resurfaced,
and I felt the need to offer it with love to Mohanji’s family as well.
The Hug I Was Seeking
We were talking—Ehsan (my husband) and me—about Kumbh Mela. We were discussing how much we would have to let go if I wanted to go—the savings, the migration path, everything. It was a real conversation, heart-to-heart.
While we were speaking, Ehsan began sharing his experience of meeting with Mohanji in Dubai in 2024 once again, how he had placed his head on Mohanji’s chest and heard his heartbeat.
I was sitting in front of my altar, looking at Mohanji’s picture while we were talking. I closed my eyes. As Ehsan spoke, something happened. It wasn’t imagination. It was real. I found myself putting my head — my left ear — onto Mohanji’s heart. I could feel his heartbeat.
And in that moment, I understood:
It was not just a heartbeat. It was the heartbeat of the Universe. I became vast. I became calm. There was no separation. No distance. Only the rhythm of love is alive within.
And from that deep silence, Mohanji’s voice rose inside me: “You want to come to Kumbh Mela to hug me? Here is your hug.”
There was no need to travel. There was no need to search. The hug had already happened. The soul had already reached home.
After that, Kumbh Mela was not missed. Even though my body stayed in Canada, my soul lived every moment—attending satsangs, dipping in sacred rivers, celebrating Mohanji’s birthday—all from within. Friends walked the rivers in India. Here, I walked with them in every breath. It is not just a memory. It is a living experience—alive, breathing, beating. No “I” gave. No “I” received. Only grace moved.
Since those sacred moments, grace has unfolded gently — shaping life beyond what the mind can plan. There is only deep gratitude for the silent flowering happening within and around, all humbly placed at his lotus feet.
|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI ||
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 25th May 2025
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