by Alua Kinzhebayeva, UK
My dear, gentle reader, I am excited to share with you the grace and divine leela I experienced at Maha Kumbh 2025.
Like many others, the character I am playing, “Alua,” didn’t consider coming to Kumbh, thinking it would be too crowded and chaotic. I was planning to go to Sri Lanka instead to witness the divine presence of Mohanji. That was until I had a call with a friend from UK Sangha, during which I got clarity on what I really wanted—more time with Mohanji and Kumbh being such a place. I booked everything without worrying, as I was adamant about making it to Kumbh – dead or alive. One of my burning questions for Kumbh was dissolution and, preferably, yesterday. I didn’t know how to ask Mohanji because he respects and supports life on Earth, and every experience I have with him is life-affirming.
Experience 1: “Alua” as Maha-mantra
Sometime around noon, I came to Sai Baba’s temple only to see Mohanji and people greeting him in various ways, such as touching his feet or hugging him. As always, I stood behind people’s backs and didn’t plan to do any of that. I don’t feel worthy of touching him or breathing next to him, forget about giving a hug because of the wish I carried within, which can be guessed from the contents of my testimonials, and speaking openly in general, plus respecting his personal space. This was when Mohanji acknowledged my presence by saying, “Alua.” I accepted this invitation with surprise and gratitude, quickly came up from the back, kissed his hands, said something quickly and retreated.
Let me explain what and why this is special.
- You might or might not have experienced people from the same company walking past you without even giving you a nod as if you didn’t exist. This is my daily experience. I don’t understand this behaviour. I don’t consider it human. And now imagine an avatar calling you by your name! Affirming your existence even though you are not remotely special and are semi-detached from the world, from the very world he is caring for.
- I never really connected to my name, “Alua,” and even considered asking for a spiritual name, so I have something from Mohanji to carry with me until the end. This name was used by beings who were not connected to me in a loving sense as the divine connected to me; it felt more like a connection to a made-up image of me. So when innocent, pure, loving ultimate power calls you by your name, it becomes a spell. It becomes akin to the primordial sound “Aum.” It infuses you with love and light. It lifts you from low-frequency depths in split seconds.
- Those who read “Power of Purity” by Mohanji would know how our frequency impacts our lives on Earth as well as other planes of existence. And that, even if we originally came from a higher frequency plane of existence, we won’t be magically expatriated back unless frequencies match.
I thought of asking him for a mantra that would best suit me, but I got something way more precious and effective—something that places me into a divine state of love.
Experience 2: Kissing his holy feet and being unexpectedly blessed
Since the recent Dubai Satsang in 2024, I have been wanting to cover his feet with kisses. This way, I could give him all my love while maintaining a respectful distance. I approached the stage where Mohanji sat with his feet hidden behind the pillow and asked if I could kiss his feet. He nodded and neatly placed his feet on the pillow, which I then covered with three kisses each and quickly rested my forehead on them. The grace didn’t stop here. You see, I had a Mai-Tri done to me before and was told that I might require a couple of more sessions to clear old acquired energies.
When I went for the second session, the practitioner was surprised that I was much energetically cleaner than before. To double-check, she asked if anyone else did Mai-Tri for me between our sessions. I replied, “No.” She then shared that if she hadn’t seen me kissing Mohanji’s feet, it would have stayed a mystery, and I got lighter after kissing his feet.
Experience 3: Questioning and formulating my connection to Mohanji.
After a satsang, I asked him if I should become a Mai-Tri practitioner, to which he replied it depends on how connected we are. I looked down in confusion and shame; my mind went blank, trying to think hard. I thought, “My god, I am not connected to this world, and I have no memories of past lives to measure my connection to the Guru Principle or if I ever interacted with the divine unit we now call “Mohanji.” I felt deflated, but someone from our tent suggested that he mirrored my doubts back.
So, during the next satsang, I asked Mohanji, “How do we measure the depth of connection?” I also gave him a context of how I connect to him as innocence, purity, and truth. I remember how much he did for the world, and I do not match it with people who are more closely connected to him in my eyes. This makes me question our connection despite my being uplifted when thinking about him, looking at his photos and videos, and adopting his teachings.
He replied, “Alua! Do you know how many times you said, “I know?” Remove the i, i, i, and there will be no separation. While typing this in my London apartment, I realised he wasn’t necessarily reflecting anything back but plainly stating the main requirement for being a Mai-Tri practitioner.
Experience 4: Appreciating being alive more
Before coming to Kumbh, I spent a weekend at MCB Scotland with two people who didn’t plan on coming to Kumbh like me. After each aarati, the priest Murali would say affirmations before giving holy water—one being protection against untimely death. Every time, I thought to myself, “But why? Isn’t it cool to drop the body now and go back to the divine?”
My understanding was refreshed at Kumbh by Mohanji. Mohanji explained several stages of human life – learning, earning, becoming more aware, and connecting to God. Both of them, at different times, had re-iterated what happens during an untimely death. The soul leaves the body in a rush and confused; it then starts seeing moments of its life being played back; many people cling to negativity or unfulfilled desires and don’t think of God at the moment of transition. The last thought becomes a foundation for the next life.
I then thought that the Divine might not be holding me alive against my will just for the sake of fun and games. It is most probably giving me time to strengthen our connection so that when the time for my exit comes, I will only think of my beloved God and not my doubts about connection and worthiness.
Experience 5: Re-affirming my connection to Mohanji
A small group of us left early in the morning for Prayagraj airport to avoid traffic drama. Two of our group were not Mohanji’s devotees and saw him for the first time at Kumbh. One sweet lady asked all the right questions, and I was honoured to be there to provide her with the information I gathered from books and experience with Mohanji. She asked if he was a liberated being. To which I happily replied that he is not only liberated, but he is God realised, an accomplished being.
She rightfully asked, “How do I know the authenticity of what people say?” I acknowledged this great question and replied that I didn’t know that and that his titles and connections were not important to me. I would still connect to his innocence and purity even if he was a common person and wasn’t connected to Agastya, Bogarnath and Mahavatar Babaji. I am very grateful for this conversation as it stopped my doubts about my connections.
Experience 6: Been made aware of being a witness and an actor, but not the doer.
I was at Mumbai airport getting my boarding pass when an elderly Indian gentleman approached the check-in lady and asked for a new pass as the current one wasn’t functioning. Something made me lean over to look at the pass to try to read his name. This was a very subtle push. You see, in normal circumstances, I wouldn’t do that, as I am trying to feed myself less outside information so I feel divine more.
I read “Pra…ti,” “Prajapati.” I was so surprised by the name that I asked him if his name was actually “Prajapati.” He was surprised by my question and then by my knowledge of what Prajapati means. He continued our conversation and asked what I was doing in India. I said, “Kumbh Mela.” His face lit up. He and his wife are elderly, and he thought it was impossible for them to walk all the way to Kumbh with this traffic situation. I told him I would share a small bottle with him if my Ganga water bottles survived the flight. I was strangely feeling some high-frequency energy in my forehead. But this is not all!
What made me think of divine leela came next when we landed in London. He asked me if I knew who Sathya Sai Baba was, to which I happily pulled out Sai Baba’s photos I carry with me. He then shared about his darshans, interviews, blessings, Paduka blessings, and ring materialisation. This is what made us both aware that it wasn’t a coincidence and was set up by the divine. While this encounter wasn’t about me, it was about Prajapati being taken care of by the Divine; I was given a prime example of what Mohanji and Sai Baba talk a lot about- that you are not a doer, but an actor and a witness.
Experience 7: I am the path and the destination.
Many would know this phrase, and by the grace of God, I have experienced it.
I came back from Maha Kumbh Mela with symptoms of Covid and descended into sadness by focusing on physical separation from God instead of our eternal connection. During an online therapy group, I suddenly burst into tears because of that, which triggered judgments directed at me and my relationship with God. I felt angry for several reasons – I myself don’t generally judge anyone for anything except for judgment; how can you judge anyone with confidence like it is absolutely normal if you know nothing of them, of the path they walked and are on?
This is where I was given a choice to stay with these people or walk away. At first, I thought to myself. “Let me stay and get triggered by ignorance directed at me so I could remove any remaining dirt inside.” But after long consideration, I have decided to leave this relationship as these judgements have nothing to do with me, are not a reflection of me, are of no value and are potentially dangerous as these low-frequency interactions might trigger new incarnations for no good reason. This was the beginning of a felt realisation of “I am the path and the destination.”
I remembered myself in this life that no matter what I went through and mostly alone, I didn’t descend into the darkness of ignorance and pass on judgements as if I was appointed by God judge and the head of the karmic council. I then proceeded to remember Mohanji as an Avadhoota, whose purity I find attractive. This was when the magic happened, as I realised that this is the quality I have always loved and possessed; I felt love inside, and it was directed at me by me. I am the person I have always been looking for. I am that friend and a partner. I am the path and the destination. I am.
Thank you, my sweet, innocent, pure Mohanji, for being the light in the darkness.
|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI ||
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 8th April 2025
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