And Dubai Rocked!

 Dubai, June 25th, 2010 

The kiss from Mother Inez that says it all 🙂

It’s been a long time since Mohanji and I came to Dubai together – to me, it felt like a year at least. As a matter of fact, I felt as if I went through a time machine of a sort and suddenly found myself with the same loving friends from the past.  🙂 

Since Mohanji was to conduct two meditations in two days, I knew that a hectic schedule awaited us – but when love is there, all is enjoyed… 

After a relaxing morning with our Dubai hosts -Shernaz and family, we all went together to Aiyappanji’s apartment in Deira to attend Sai Baba’s Noon Arati. Mohanji knew that Solenki Maharaj, Chief Priest of Shirdi, is in Dubai and will be doing the Arati himself. He insisted that Mohanji comes as well. This was a great joy and great honor – whenever we visited Shirdi, we experienced many loving leelas of Baba through his beautiful instrument, the humble Solenki Maharaj. I was so happy to see him again. 

When the Grace of Baba flows - joyous moments with Solenki Maharaj

The bhajans and Arati were very beautiful, but when Solenki Maharaj entered, I felt a sudden shift in energy. Tears suddenly came for no reason. And then he led the most amazing Arati – starting with Shirdi Sai’s and finishing with Sathya Sai’s Arati. The place was rocking! I felt goose bumps all over my body – it was as if energy was exploding all around me. So much joy, so much love… What a great experience! And the casual conversation with Solenki Maharaj afterwards was so intimately divine – his innocence always touches my heart… 

Help ever, hurt never...

The sincerity and purity of Aiyappanji impressed me as well. He has devoted his entire apartment to Baba – his selflessness is amazing. Mohanji and him know each other for many years and were recalling how Baba initially connected them (and so many other people) in His unique ways. I tried saying ‘thank you’ to Ayappenji for the lovely lunch, but he was smiling telling me that it’s not allowed. So sweet. 

Old friends meet - Mohanji and Aiyappanji, Dubai, June 25th

After all the high energy experiences, we were pretty much ready for the BTW scheduled to take place at Dr. Manjari’s and Devang’s apartment in Bur Dubai. We came a bit early because a few people wanted private consultation with Mohanji. The moment we all rejoiced in was when Dr. Manjari, a few minutes after our arrival, brought little Kavya into the room and handed her over into Mohanji’s arms. 

No blinking when eyes speak - Kavya in Mohanji's embrace, June 25th

The familiar stare happened again – she was clearly glued to the brightness of Mohanji’s third eye and looked so beautifully dazed. The same thing happened when she first met Mohanji a few months ago. 

Later on in the evening, Manjari brought Kavya again, and, sure enough, the stare without blinking was on from the moment she came near to Mohanji. 

I love what I see!

He kept smiling and saying ‘She is connecting with my third eye’. I was so amazed to witness these divine events at the soul level, in bodies that are so different in size :-). They had their own communication and Mohanji told me later on that he was amazed how she looked straight into his third eye – babies usually don’t do that… 🙂 He said that, soul-wise, their age is almost similar… 

Hey, nice to see you again. You are sporting a different look this time around. Not bad 🙂

Before we knew it, the room that initially looked so big and empty, was now jam-packed with people – I didn’t know whom to greet and hug first – my cheeks were aching from constant smiling 🙂 It was so nice to meet my dear, dear friends again, to share the joy of BTW experience, to bask in that energy… 

A loving re-union - Jenny, Biba and the glowing third eye 🙂

Since there were altogether 6 of us initiated into Shaktipat present, I knew that, regardless of the number of people, Shaktipat won’t be a problem. Since I could take my time with each individual, I went very deep with the experience of giving Shaktipat and felt it was so amazingly intense. I could  even feel their heart beat! 

After meditation was over, I reqested all present to keep their eyes closed – we played a beautiful Arati from Siddha Yoga tradition (Bhagawan Nithyananda of Ganeshpuri) sang by Gurumayi. It arrives from the space of pure bhakti and really touches the heart. As one person said, it “boosted the taste of nectar that was already experienced during BTW – a great experience…” 

Indeed, this Arati was experienced so deeply because that is our path – Siddha path of non-doing, path of perfect surrender, shraddha and saburi… Bade Baba (Bhagawan Nithyananda of Ganeshpuri) was very similar to Shirdi Baba – a great Siddha and avadhoota (Mohanji’s connection with Bade Baba was explained in detail in the ‘Ganeshpuri trip’ post on this blog). 

Our altar on 25th - Dattatreya, Shirdi Sai Baba, Bade Baba and Donation Box for Sai Mandir

After meditation and Arati, Mohanji cemented the bliss of the evening with a truly amazing Q&A – his words were like arrows. I will not even try to summarize it – the transcription of the entire Q&A will be posted soon. All I can say is that IT ROCKED! (later on in the evening Mohanji told me that he received a telepathic message from Shirdi Sai Baba who said: “So? Meditation ROCKED!” – Mohanji and I laughed endlessly about it – our amazing Baba, so full of surprizes, so overflowing with love…) 

Q&A with Mohanji - some still bathing in the inner experience...

At one point during Q&A, Mohanji invited our guest and sincere Shirdi Sai devotee, Professor Muralidhar, to explain more about his gigantic Seva task of setting up a Shirdi Sai Baba temple at Bellary in India. Since he was on visit to Dubai, seeking funds for the temple construction, it was through the Grace of Baba and his instruments (Manoaj, Pradeep) that he joined us for meditation. He spoke about his TANGIBLE inner experiences with Shirdi Sai Baba and how he mustered the courage to assume responsibility for this huge project with zero funds. His sincerity was touching. 

Professor Muralidhar - man with a mission from Sai

Later on I found out that during the 2 days in Dubai, he managed to collect the amazing amout of AED 16,000 – the EXACT amount that was required at this point. That is the grace of Baba… – he always makes sure we know who is running the show and what all can be done when we surrender… 

Professor Muralidhar and Mohanji - the beautiful glow due to sincere devotion to Sai

I am still receiving e-mails about the TANGIBLE experiences from BTW. As is always the case with Shaktipat from Mohanji, all had their own experience and received that what was required… 

Post-BTW expressions, June 25th

One person said that, during BTW, he could clearly see the light gushing out of Mohanji’s Agnya chakra in three different colors. That light had a special effect on him. Lilly said that she could clearly see gentle green light emanating from Mohanji and healing all present at all the levels – physical, emotional, mental, spiritual. She experienced the effect of that healing. 

Here are a few more testimonials: 

 “After Shaktipat from Mohanji, I couldn’t sleep properly at night. My eyes were burning for the last 2 days. Although today the burning of eyes stopped, sensation at third eye and Sahasrara is still there. Thank you once again.” 

Pradeep experiencing Shiva

“I felt our strong connection becoming even more intense. My heart is just overflowing with love. My onus, I realized, is to accept everyone at their own level, without judgement. I felt this intensely in BTW. Now I feel the heart unbridled and there is a big shift within me.”  

“It’s lovely to sit with Mohanji. The energy just shoots up and dances within. It’s sheer ecstasy to soak in the uprising energy and spread it around.” 

Pradeep S. and Mohanji & Baba - both dressed in bright red 🙂

In all the excitement, I forgot to announce the Grand Cross meditation which was to happen the next evening. Later on I understood why this slipped my mind – the turnout was so big that people could not fit into the venue. Another confirmation that I am not the doer and all, indeed, happens for a reason. 

Account of the Grand Cross Meditation follows soon. 

With love that rocks :-), 


Mohanji's eyes - the almost unbearable intensity...

BTW in Germany – the Hamburg and Munich ‘double pack’ of bliss!

Green bliss of Hamburg, June 2010


Dear All, 

a report from Europe after this weekend’s BTW Double-pack in Hamburg and Munich! 🙂 

1. Part – HAMBURG
Friday, 4 June 2010

The main reason for travelling to Hamburg was to conduct the BTW meditation there. I did not decide and plan it in the conventional way. I rather felt a strong pull to do it, and it happened through me. 

The welcome after my 5 hours long trip from cold and rainy Munich could not have been more beautiful: sun and bright blue skies, mild summer breeze, expansive green areas, luscious blooms and flowers, generously tree-lined streets, the tranquil lake with its picturesque white boats in the middle of the city, in the parks surrounding the lake, and the various rivers where people had their picnic, reading or just dozing in the sun; 

Enjoying the weekend picnic, Hamburg way


dogs playfully chasing each other, birds singing, butterflies dancing, duck-parents patiently feeding their demanding ducklings – Hamburg seemed nothing but a huge, peaceful yet vibrant, majestic garden. Far away from current crisis and catastrophies. 

Hamburg - the majestic garden


BTW meditation in the evening was really special. We met at a meditator’s apartment which happened to be a roof-top apartment – close to heaven :-). The fact that it was a “ladies only BTW“ made me grin. It just happened that no man attended! All women. 

BTW meditation/Shaktipat gave each one of them exactly what was needed – the right dosage of energy to allow a shift without overwhelming them. A long sequence of joy-filled silence followed after the last note of Power of Purity vanished in the background, while we were all being kissed by the golden evening sunlight. 

I really can not decribe the beauty of what we experienced. There are no words for it. What I can say though is that we had the most delightful spectrum of reports from the meditators ranging from “inner sparkles, tingling, energising buzz“ to “entering deep inner peace and serenity“ as well as feeling “wide-awake and crystal clear clarity“, “formlessness and eternal space“, being “much more aligned, upright and adjusted“, “blessings for bankers and politicians“ (!), “heart widening and complete melting into love“ and “feeling touched by the divine“ (where just a smile and soft tears of recognition could express the inexpressible) . 

BTW in Hamburg - Candles Arranged with Love


In the Q&A session the group was thrilled to hear that what we received during the meditation is something that will last. That this was not just an “esoteric feel-good-shower that will have vaporised by the end of the week“, but a precious gift that will even unfold more of its grace in the days and weeks to come. The ladies who attended the first BTW session with Mohanji in April confirmed my statement nodding their heads, smiling knowingly. 

And how did Marina feel in all this? Like being carried, lovingly and powerfully, by the waves of the big wide ocean… 🙂 

2. Part – MUNICH
Sunday, 06 June 2010

Candles with Power of Purity, Munich, June 2010

Only a quick note after tonight‘s meditation, which we just finished and which leaves me speechless looking back. I never felt Mohanji’s presence more clearly than tonight. Light and heat rushed with such power through me during Shaktipat, from head to toe – incredible! I also felt Mohanji right next to me. It was somehow tangible that he stood close to me and placed a ball of love and light into my hand! I felt it and saw it on my inner canvas. 

Mohanji Invoking and Offering the Light


Deeply touched, I could not hold back the tears – they welled up silently. The meditation room felt so spacious, so bright, so peaceful and loving. Out of this world. And we continued to bless family, friends, places, people, cities, countries…. 

I realise again, that life and the spiritual path are also a great mystery. And it is OK not to have the answers for everything.. . In this context allow me to quote the mystic Teresa of Ávila: 

“More tears are shed over answered prayers than unanswered ones.” 


“We can only learn to know ourselves and do what we can / namely, surrender our will and fulfill God’s will in us.” 

Mohanji, thank you so much. 

With deep gratitude. 


Marina and a friend, after BTW in Munich - June 2010

BTW Experience on Full Moon (‘Buddha Poornima’) and even more Full Heart


The golden Buddha Consciousness


Dear friends,        

From all the BTW experiences since 2007 till now, what happened last Friday (May 28th) during BTW in Muscat was definitely THE experience for me. It was the continuation of the magical Buddha Poornima. We had initially planned to experience this Poornima high up in the Himalayas – the Kailash trip. Sadly, it did not happen. However, it was the ‘higher will’ that this Buddha Poornima remains a memorable experience nevertheless…   

One journalist was supposed to join us for BTW, but in the end couldn’t make it – it was the plan of the Masters that only those who were coming regularly join us for this special mediation.       

Mohanji spoke briefly before the meditation (which was unusual) and at that time itself I was already sensing a high energy and thus felt the pull to go within, away from the senses. At one point I felt a jolt as I heard Mohanji telling me “Let’s start. Today we’ll do the 360 Degrees meditation” – I was so happy to hear that because that meant we’ll have much more time to bathe in this energy!        

Dr. Deepali and I both conducted Shaktipat after Mohanji. I could feel that my awareness was much more sharper this time – I had very clear sensations about each recipient of Shaktipat.        

After fulfilling my ‘Shaktipat dharma’ :-), I blissfully floated back to my seat and then….. it all happened. Something most unexpected followed the Shaktipat I received from  Dr. Deepali. I was suddenly catapulted through Sahasrara, at a very high speed!     

The Transforming Power of Light    

I was like a fountain of Light endlessly bursting/flowing upward, moving at a very high speed.       

At one point I wondered how far I will go… But there was no fear, just awe and wonder.
And then suddenly, when it all settled, I reached some other galaxy/loka/dimension (am not sure how to call it) of amazing vibration. The kind of beauty I saw/sensed there was simply breathtaking! A true golden empire, with expanded, golden beings floating in it, with flower petals flowing everywhere, celebration, divine tunes, intense sensations of expansion and pure bliss…         

The Indescribable Golden Bliss


I received a deep understanding, a sort of revelation, about one living Master, and numerous insights which I would prefer not to share at this point. 
All this subsided after the meditation and all I felt was Mohanji’s mighty presence and immense love. I recognized the familiar ‘tickle’ on my Sahasrara, his ‘trademark’ :-), followed by a surge of energy that always makes me beautifully immobile and still like a stone.        

At that moment, I could feel all the Masters blessing me through him. I was so deeply touched and just wanted to bow at their feet, to express my gratitude somehow. I kept bowing, deeply moved, and kept conveying through the third eye “Bless me, bless me, bless me” – I never experienced such depth of gratitude before.. My physical body could not move, but I did it mentally. And as I bowed, I felt a sort of a ‘file transfer’ happening through the ‘bindu’ at the back of my head and the back of Anahata – I felt the love and blessings of the Masters pouring into me. I understood experientially why one is to bow to Divine in order to receive the blessings… Interestingly enough, during the Q&A after the meditation, Mohanji spoke about the same, explaining how bindu on the back of the head is for receiving, while the third eye is for conveying/communication…        

The Science of Humbleness


When all left after the meditation, Dr. Deepali shared with me what she saw while giving me Shaktipat:   

“Biba, you were out of this world. As I touched your crown chakra, I saw golden bright flame sharply coming out through your Shushumna with a tremendous force. It was like a fire cracker… bhuinala. This went on for some time.   

Then you became a pink lotus emerging out of bright consciousness. This consciousness was unique and a beautiful blend of all colors slightly dominated by pleasant blue. This was very different than the bright white consciousness which I saw with few others present for the meditation.  The pink lotus did not want to be straight. It was tilted on the left where there is giant photo of Shiva on the wall. It wanted to be humble towards Shiva.”      

The Beauty of Surrender


After Dr. Deepali and I got to ‘share the notes’ I was amazed to see that we both saw/sensed EXACTLY THE SAME about each individual present while giving them Shaktipat. I felt overwhelming Love towards her and remembered how, when I did Shaktipat to her, I felt that both of us were dissolving and, for some time, we were One – I completely lost the sense of time and boundary.        

While giving Shaktipat to little Moushami, I felt that she was seated on a lotus, blessing the world – she was so beautiful, elegant and mature… With Shaktipat, her energy and radiance increased even more – her beauty was not of this world…. And, amazingly enough, here’s what Dr. Deepali said:        

“Moushami was amazing. She gave me a big surprise. She was completely settled in her experience. I saw her expanding consciousness and saw her becoming like a bright sadhwi.        

Love that Transforms the World


She was sitting in a lotus posture with the background of the bright white consciousness as if she is the door to that consciousness. Sanjay, we need to change our parental role with Moushami. After dinner, Moushami said, Mama, it was a wonderful expereince today! I had a very nice meditation. She slept at 1 am and did not go to school the next day!”        

Moushami - Blessing the World, Kissed by the Sun


 Here are a few more experiences as per the above ‘compared notes’ system :-):        

While giving Shaktipat to Sudeep, I felt that he is a little babyI held and held him ‘in my arms’ :-), couldn’t get enough of it as I felt sooooo much of motherly love.  And Dr. Deepali’s experience:  “Sudeep, you were an innocent child.. crawling in a big house. I realised that it was Krishna consciousness. I saw you merging with that consciousness.   

And then, suddenly, there was a thick, bright white zone, brightness which can’t be compared with anything on this earth. Brightness was filled everywhere in the extent of my vision. Sudeep, am grateful to you for this experience.”   

The Melting Love of Yashoda and Krishna


For Sanjay, I felt that he was inside of an energy whirlpool – I stood on the top of that whirlpool and ‘looked down’ but could not reach him, i.e. did not want to disturb him because I knew he was going through some deep cleansing process. But then I felt the pull to slowly caress the top of his head (at that moment I had the same sensation like when fingers slowly go through the water) and I knew that this energy was reaching him. I felt the energy from my palm was piercing through the whirlpool, i.e. going straight through it, creating a centering effect for Sanjay. Dr. Deepali’s experience: “Sanjay, you were physically spinning as if all your chakras are fully active. I noticed that you settled after Biba gave you Shaktipat. You were glowing and smiling all the time.”  

Blissful Spinning


And Mohanish – so strange, but there was only blankness, no memory of what was happening during Shaktipat I gave him. He was just completely blank… Dr. Deepali: “And Mohanish, he was just blank/empty. A complete ‘being’ state”.    

Dr. Deepali noted how interesting it is to know that our experiences are same! No mind games here. We talk what we see. When we give Shaktipat, we are in Mohanji’s consciousness. Biba and Deepali are not different and both do not exist. Experiencing the same is the proof of that. Mohanji always says ‘See what is there. No mind projections. Human brain is conditioned to see only that what we want to see! Experiencing others’ experiences…. Having a REAL experience is an actual progress in subtlety!’     

While still ‘digesting’ this experience, I spoke to Mohanji about it later on that evening, and he told me something that touched me even more: “Your aura was golden. During that meditation, I allowed you to experience my consciousness fully, to see what I see. You were ready to withstand the energy due to consistent practice of BTW and a high level of surrender. This is our path – no rules and patterns, it is the depth of surrender that matters the most“.        

There are no words that could ever express the profundity of my gratitude for this blessing, for this Grace that I hope to be worthy of always…        

Mohanji's Unconditional Blessing


Furthermore, I spoke with Pradeep Sukhrani yesterday – he just happened to call me, for the first time since I moved to Oman – I was amazed when he told me about the experiences during BTW in Dubai that same Friday. That was the moment when I decided that I should write about all these experiences. So this is what happened in Dubai the same evening:        

Pradeep said that he felt a strong pull to come for BTW knowing it was Buddha Poornima – he managed to get out of the office in the very last moment and was only 5 min. late. He said: “On the way to meditation, my body started heating up suddenly, like fire – I simply had to rush to take 3 glasses of chilled water to calm down. I reached Focus Direct office just as the Omkaar and initial breath-work was going on. As soon as the meditation CD started, I felt the immense heat & my 3rd eye started throbbing strongly. I could feel very, very strong presence of Mohanji. All 15 of us present flowed within this amazing energy field.    

Shernaz was the first to give Shaktipat. I was just bathing in this amazing energy and, the moment when I felt it was time for me to give Shaktipat, I suddenly clearly felt Mohanji’s soul in my body!!!! It was amazing, to say the least. I completely merged with his consciousness! This never happened to me before!”        

Mohanji in Meditation - Connecting With All At a Deeper Level


Everybody in BTW Dubai had an intense, profound experience that time – here are a few experiences:        

Lily was deeply grateful for this experience of deep cleansing. She could feel that all her stress and heaviness were gone. Rajeev said the same thing.        

Sarita  also underwent intense cleansing and felt very strong heat & thirst. I could feel that while giving her Shaktipat, so I asked Amrita to give her a glass of water as soon as the meditation was over.        

Shernaz said that while I was giving her Shaktipat, she went into an amazing trance state which was indescribable.        

Abdul Reham, Saasha, Inez, Rekha & all the rest of them felt very strong & high energy presence and could not really express it all in words.        

The most amazing thing is that each and every one felt that Mohanji was seated at the place where I was sitting (in front of the table/Baba moorthy). I was simply amazed! So what I felt when I said earlier that “I could feel Mohanji’s Soul in my body” was witnessed by others as well.        

This surely was an experience which can never be forgotten…        

Gul also shared her unique experience:        

In fact I never thought I will be able to attend BTW as I had to take my bro in law from India shopping before his flight on Fri night. However, Masters heard my prayers and, in the last moment, another friend came in and offered to take my bro in law shopping – I happily headed straight to Focus Direct office. 🙂        

I instantly dissolved into the meditation and was somewhere far away when I received Shernaz’s light touch on my Sahasrara – I felt warm and went back flying into outer space (can’t remember any of the experiences) to be brought back to body consciousness with the second Shaktipat.         

After some time, I was surprised to receive a third Shaktipat, but this time, I felt for sure Mohanji’s touch on my forehead. As I concentrated on my third eye, I saw something amazing – little Ammu’s smiling face! I saw her giving me Shaktipat herself! This was the first time I received  direct blessings from her.        

The Eternal Angel Ammu - Looking Deep into the Ocean of Life


 After the meditation, when I opened my eyes, I thought Mohanji was seated at the helm, near his picture placed on the table.  It was only when the light was put on that I saw it was actually Pradeep Sukhrani’s smiling face :-). Amazing!        

The loving energies filled my heart – my spirit was so content and at peace to just BE.        

And finally, Shernaz’s experience:        

What happened last Friday was truly profound.  When the meditation CD started, I sensed a strong Divine energy that filled up the room instantly. It was so beautiful to just bathe in it – I just wanted to remain in meditation. I barely mustered the willpower to stand up and perform Shaktipat, but was glad I did so.  The energy flow from my right hand was immense and I knew for sure that higher Masters were pouring their Love through me – it was such an honor to be Their instrument. After finishing the Shaktipats, I happily sat down as my 3rd eye was throbbing a lot. When Pradeep gave me Shaktipat, I felt clearly Mohanji was standing in front of me and touching my Sahasrara.        

 When the meditation ended, Pradeep asked everyone for their experiences. I was in a trance state and could not make out what everyone spoke. Sometimes I wish these meditations can go on for a much, much longer time….        

Thank you friends for reading this long report – it is after midnight, but I felt I should take the time to share all of this with you and thus do all that is humanly possible to honor this experience.        

I will be travelling to India tomorrow and Mohanji is now already in Vietnam, but through BTW all of us surely will be together this Friday, always…        

I’m sending you my undivided love in its purest form.        



When Deep Gratitude Floods the Inner Space, the Living Silence Speaks