These months of lockdown have been, for me, such a privileged time; it has been difficult to believe possible. Chance to rest, reflect, accept and heal in unspeakably profound silence with the suspension of all demands and duties. I barely spoke – nor wanted to – for weeks on end. It has been a precious gift of re-connection and harmony with a healing Earth, during which love and gratitude often rose spontaneously like a fountain springing tears of blissful joy.
I haven’t been able to meet Mohanji in person yet, and after reading so many devotees’ experiences every day, a thought began bugging me: would I ever be as close to him as some other devotees are, like those who are able to text or talk to him anytime? I began talking to Mohanji’s picture, and said, “Please don’t be inaccessible to me. I have no way to contact you directly; neither do I feel the need to. But please make sure my mental connectivity to you becomes so strong that I will never need to rely on any physical means of contacting you!” With this prayer, I ended the ‘conversation’…
However, since my connection to Mohanji, many concepts in my mind have started to fall apart one by one, and I have begun to connect to Lord Sri Ranganatha as well. Further, I started enjoying doing meditation in the beautiful Ranganatha temple as well. It has become a favourite place for mediation and Kriya when I stay at Skanda Vale. This beautiful temple has become the commonplace that I visualise when Mohanji says “Visualise a calm and serene place” in meditations.
It is really Mohanji’s grace that he was able to fight the Covid-19 virus and survive a cardiac arrest at the same time. The 4 Mai-Tri sessions carried out by Bhavani during the two weeks when he was in the ICU were instrumental for his recovery. If Mohanji’s grace was not there, I cannot think what could have happened.
One year and three months later, on 23rd February 2020, on Mohanji’s birthday, Preethi and I were with Mohanji at Kataragama! This trip to Kataragama wasn’t that easy. I wasn’t sure if I could make this trip. Surely it was for the completion of my realisation, and also a confirmation to Preethi’s questions that we were both taken, literally taken together to the place that played such a vital role in our realisation. And we were taken by the Master himself, appearing in the very ordinary physical form with whom we can connect so easily, but firmly and deeply.
I am sharing this because I used to be that person who always used to wonder, “Why not me”, “When will I get such an experience”, “Oh, I wish I had that too”. I think the shift happened when I started to let go, surrender and began to experience others’ experiences as my now, I could feel their happiness and be with them in their experience. With Mohanji’s grace, I have started having awareness and recognition of his mystic ways.
I was knocked off for 1-2 minutes after experiencing this divine form of Mohanji. Thousands of images and thoughts started flooding me. The image which Sri Sathya Sai Baba showed me 30 years ago flashed before me. He is the one!!! A deep understanding of the vision I had 30 years ago and the emotional roller-coaster of my life all came to a standstill.
The transformation I feel is huge. I get to know myself more and more every day, and more and more, I like what I find out. I get to know my strengths, my wisdom, my peace. It is interesting; I feel that I am only now getting to know Mohanji and how great his selfless love and grace is.
